Random ramblings of my chaotic mind

(This is a blog post I had written earlier this year and I wanted to repost it on my new blog site since I am deleting the other one.) With Valentine’s Day upon us I thought I would start with something about love or in my case the lack thereof. I am a divorced, single woman and I have been single for quite some time. Some of this is because of being a bigger girl that is not always the most confident in going out and finding someone and a lot of it is by choice. I met my ex-husband when I was young and spent 6 years with him. I will not be going into what went wrong in your relationship because I don't hate him and respect him enough not to post our life in a blog.                 Needless to say in my almost 30 years of life I have been jerked around and treated like crap by my fair share of men, leaving me at times bitter and jaded by love. I know I am not the only woman that has been left this way either, ...

When I was younger, not that I am really that old, I always said that age wouldn’t bother me that I would not be one of the women that got all depressed when they turned thirty, after all it is just a number.  Unfortunately at the age of twenty-six it hit me, I was closer to thirty than I was twenty now. Maybe it was because of the changes that had happened in my life in that past year that made me think and with each consecutive birthday since that day thirty hung there, looming ominously; taunting me that it would soon be upon be here. The calendar finally flipped over to 2012 and I was determined that thirty was not going to bring me down that instead I was going to celebrate in style, heck we would make it a full three day weekend blow out since my birthday landed on a Friday. Unfortunately thirty was determined it was not going down that easily, things in life happened that brought me down majorly and as May drew nearer I found myself dropping into a depressed funk.  ...